Isn’t this license plate great?
Again, I am guilty of slacking in the blog writing department. Sometimes it is easier to just get things done and move on.
I look back to when I first started this blog and how difficult it was for me to let go of anything! Back then I thought I would honor each trinket with a photo, perform Reiki on each object and send it off to what I determined to be the best use for the object. Back then I knew there was no other way for me to let go. I needed the rituals to form a new habit, become comfortable with the emotional process and forge change. Without the rituals I would have failed miserably.
Once I began to feel less resistance letting go, I realized that the individualized ritual was cumbersome and slowed my progress. So, I adapted the ritual to photographing and performing Jakikiri Joka Ho on multiple items at once. Things moved along quicker and with surprisingly even less resistance.
Now, I have managed to let go of many possessions. Yet, I am not close to having an empty house. At this stage I feel driven to let go of things. I keep boxes at the ready. I walk around the house and take things off the wall at random, place them in boxes and actively look for the next thing to add to the box. When the box is full I perform Jakikiri Joka Ho, snap a photo or not, and take it to the thrift store.
This week Big Brothers and Big Sisters called asking for donations. They said they would be grateful for even one or two small items. I started filling boxes. I had no plan. I just looked for anything that I could let go of in that moment. Letting go on demand! I filled 2 boxes with clothing, 1 box with housewares, 2 boxes with books and 1 box with wall decor. I performed Jakikiri Joka Ho on all 6 boxes at once, took 1 photo…. DONE with even less resistance, no remorse and bit of delight!
I still have too much stuff, but the letting go is getting easier:-)
Jakikiri Joka Ho
Today as I snapped my pics and performed Jakikiri Joka Ho on the items, I started to feel bad about dumping my stuff on someone else. I began to wonder if I should just throw it all out??? Perhaps my stuff didn’t have any value to others??? Perhaps I had just attached too much value to these things that I no longer USED??? Perhaps my things never had any value??? Perhaps giving them to another was a burden instead of a gift???
Then I realized that I was being judgemental. I reminded myself that it wasn’t my place to judge EVER. I should not judge the value of an item to another. Afterall, that would be judging them as well as the item. That would be unfair to all. So I finished up my Reiki, had my husband pack up the SUV and headed to the thrift shoppe one more time.
Funny thing….. as my husband was unloading the SUV, the man at the collection site said to my husband, “Boy you sure are giving away a lot of good stuff!”. So much for all my worrying.
Don’t be afraid to let go. You may be holding on to another man’s treasure:-)
Jakikiri Joka Ho
Last night I didn’t know how I would be able to keep my promise and meet my 90 day deadline. I was afraid I would be overcome once I entered the closet and accomplish nothing. As usually when I try to lighten up, I can only let go of a portion of items before I become frustrated and exhausted. So, I decided to meditate on the precept “Just for today Do Not Worry”. Suddenly while meditating I received my answer…..Instead of going through the closet piece by piece, just clear it out in one clean swoop….put everything on the bed….and if I wanted to sleep at all tonight, I would HAVE TO let it go!!!!
So, I did! It is done!! Happy dance:-)))
So 89 days ago I set a deadline for myself. I swore to myself that in 90 days I would go into my walk-in closet and get rid of everything that doesn’t fit or that I no longer wear. Seriously ruthlessly go in and not come out until everything was discarded. So for those of you that are doing the math that means TOMORROW! Holy heck! 90 days seemed a whole lot longer and I felt a whole lot bolder when I was making promises! Tonight I am plain terrified of my closet full of hopeful wishes and broken promises. Tomorrow is the day to find the courage to give up my delusions that I will ever be young and fit and let go of the fashion facade! Ugh! Arrrrgghhh!