The signs are working. The proof is in the trips to the thrift shoppe, the many bags put out for garbage collection and the car load ready to be delivered to its rightful owner(my daughter).
Today as I snapped my pics and performed Jakikiri Joka Ho on the items, I started to feel bad about dumping my stuff on someone else. I began to wonder if I should just throw it all out??? Perhaps my stuff didn’t have any value to others??? Perhaps I had just attached too much value to these things that I no longer USED??? Perhaps my things never had any value??? Perhaps giving them to another was a burden instead of a gift???
Then I realized that I was being judgemental. I reminded myself that it wasn’t my place to judge EVER. I should not judge the value of an item to another. Afterall, that would be judging them as well as the item. That would be unfair to all. So I finished up my Reiki, had my husband pack up the SUV and headed to the thrift shoppe one more time.
Funny thing….. as my husband was unloading the SUV, the man at the collection site said to my husband, “Boy you sure are giving away a lot of good stuff!”. So much for all my worrying.
Don’t be afraid to let go. You may be holding on to another man’s treasure:-)
One ‘I used to look sexy in this shirt’ and seven pairs of pants ranging from size 6 to size ‘OMG I can’t believe I am fatter than that’ is what I photographed yesterday afternoon. Boring stuff! The photographs were blech. The Reiki was uneventful, so it seemed.
What could I possibly write about? One question remained unanswered. Why had I held on for so very long to pants of various sizes that didn’t fit? I obviously live in a world of possibility, and it is certainly possible that I could lose weight and wear them once again. It is also possible that pigs will fly!
Then I realized why I kept the pants wasn’t as important as the effect keeping them had on me.
“Just for today, do not anger” is one of the Reiki precepts that I try to incorporate into my daily life. My pants violated this precept. My pants made me angry. Angry that I was not what I used to be, angry that I was getting old, angry that I can’t muster the discipline to eat less, angry at my irradiated thyroid and angry at my herniated vertebrae.
Boy oh boy, I really had no idea that my pants of the past caused me to anger. I thought that they were an incentive, a positive to goal towards!
I see now that living in past pants stops me from enjoying today’s happy dance.