The signs are working. The proof is in the trips to the thrift shoppe, the many bags put out for garbage collection and the car load ready to be delivered to its rightful owner(my daughter).
Today as I snapped my pics and performed Jakikiri Joka Ho on the items, I started to feel bad about dumping my stuff on someone else. I began to wonder if I should just throw it all out??? Perhaps my stuff didn’t have any value to others??? Perhaps I had just attached too much value to these things that I no longer USED??? Perhaps my things never had any value??? Perhaps giving them to another was a burden instead of a gift???
Then I realized that I was being judgemental. I reminded myself that it wasn’t my place to judge EVER. I should not judge the value of an item to another. Afterall, that would be judging them as well as the item. That would be unfair to all. So I finished up my Reiki, had my husband pack up the SUV and headed to the thrift shoppe one more time.
Funny thing….. as my husband was unloading the SUV, the man at the collection site said to my husband, “Boy you sure are giving away a lot of good stuff!”. So much for all my worrying.
Don’t be afraid to let go. You may be holding on to another man’s treasure:-)
My husband and I spent this holiday weekend tearing up the basement. I thought I would be through with my Jakikiri Joka Ho project by now. Things seemed easier to accomplish during the thought process. The physical materialization or dematerialization in this case is taking MUCH longer. I have to constantly remind myself of what I have already accomplished. I have even asked my husband to remind me that I really have made great strides towards my goal. It is so easy to see what I have not accomplished, get overwhelmed and fall back into the habit of holding on to EVERYTHING physical and spiritual. I need help. I need tools. I need to continually practice to move forward. I have scribbled a couple of the above signs and posted them around the house in those places that I would be likely to quickly stash something that I really should let go. A little physical manifestation to help guide me to the lighter side of life.
Last night at Reiki we discussed Wabi-Sabi, the beauty in imperfection and loving gentle wear.
I quite disliked our window air conditioner. Despite repair work it never functioned properly. It loudly and frequently shut down its compressor with an annoying room shaking thump that got on my nerves. It may have been less than an accident when it slipped from my hand as we removed it from our window LAST season, as in the last past not the recently past last season! Not to be forgotten, its sharp metal casing left its mark by slicing my hand in the plummet. It has since remained in the yard taunting me with my own laziness and procrastination. Everyday I would look out and feel sad that my yard looked so unloved, and it stared back at me in confirmation. So, there is no love lost today as I pay the upcharge to BFI to remove its toxic gas and tote it far, far away. Why did I wait so long?
Lesson learned: In my imperfection I see that the ‘not doing’ is sometimes more painful than the ‘doing’! Perhaps the faint scar on my hand will serve as a loving reminder.